Post #2: This Daddy Needs Coffee (I’ll Never Forget my First Sub)

I’ll never forget my first sub. Every so often I get a text with an update on how his journey into submission is going. We didn’t meet for very long, about half a year. It was the first time I had a submissive play partner that I met regularly over a period of time. He had no experience of BDSM or kink, but he was eager to try. We had a new goal for our session each time we met. I was living in a small dorm, so we didn’t have much space. But it was just enough to tie him up, gag him and use him.

Time passed and we started understanding our dynamic. I became his perverted daddy and he became my little. This was the first time I explored a dd/little dynamic. The stark contrasts of these sessions and the perverted nature of it’s world is what I loved the most. From lovingly cuddly to corporal punishment, from soft to hard and sensual to painful. This flow, from one side to the other and everything-in-between, is what got me hooked on kink. Choreographing a shift in energy. Creating unexpected scenarios. Being in total control whilst seeing your sub fall deeply into losing control. 



Our sessions were far from perfect, we were both pretty new to the scene. But our sessions made me understand that I can be both sensual and strict. That one doesn’t necessarily negates the other. As a result I became more aware of the energy in a scene. I became more sensual. Every so often I think of him as well. The late evenings of slowly tying him up and the marks left afterwards. Spooning him only to engulf him like a spider eating it’s prey. He was sweet and he was obsessed with me – just how I like my subs.

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Post #1: Becoming my Bitch

One of my very first kinky memories is of myself as a child consensually tying up one of my best friends naked. I remember how natural it felt and how comfortable we were. This wasn’t the first time we incorporated other materials into our sexual explorations, but it was the first time we tried bondage. At the time I didn’t have any idea of what I was doing. All I knew was that we both enjoyed ourselves and that it felt different than anything else we had tried before. This experience was my first contact with kink and it set a precedence for the rest of my sexual life.

At the age of 20, I met M, a charismatic queer black girl. Just like me she had a taste for everything other than vanilla. One day, after one of our usual deeply detailed talks about our sex lives she asked me a question:

”Have you heard of Darkside?”

Darkside is a Scandinavian BDSM forum. The next day I made an account, and a couple weeks later I met my first play partner D. This time I decided to explore my submissive side. D was older than me, experienced and took his role as dominant very seriously. D taught me the fundamentals of BDSM in a risk-aware consensual way. But our relationship didn’t last very long. I would pick, pry and poke at D, I drove him crazy. I was an annoying sub topping from the bottom. After some time we stopped meeting and I realised I should stick to exploring my dominant side.

I had so much fun exploring dominance in my twenties. I loved intimidating men, dissecting their psyche and relinquishing them of power. My favourite thing of all was to meet unsuspecting vanilla men on tinder dates. My goal for these dates was to see how much I could get them to submit to me. To be honest, I did not meet one man that wasn’t interested in becoming my bitch for the night.

These unconventional kinky dates allowed me to explore my dominance in a playful and unpretentious way. There were no elaborate scenes planned, just improvised exchanges of power and trust for the unknown. A lot of these men continued to explore BDSM after meeting me. I still get contacted by a couple of them, updating me on how their practice is going. These meetings were fundamental in forming my dominance. I gained confidence in my role as a dominatrix and learned how much I love to prey.

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